Monday, April 21, 2014

My sobriety

I used to be addicted. Maybe not the kind of addiction you might expect. I have never needed a drink or abused drugs. I was addicted to something that was very bad for me. Someone who was very bad for me. Not because he was a bad person but because we didn't bring out good things in one another.

Most people will admit that they have been in a not so great relationship. Maybe a relationship they stayed in way too long. So when did my relationship go from not so great to a life altering destructive path?

It's hard to know the exact second it happened.... the first time I was afraid to be who I really was with him. The first time I knew that the problems were entirely unfixable and yet I could not bring myself to leave. The second I started believing, in my core, that I would never be good enough for him. And I needed to be with him. Desperately.

 I didn't know that the crumbs he gave me were far less than I deserved.

Seeing him today, after three years of growth, forgiveness and sobriety....

I realized that crumbs were all he had to give.

Thursday, April 3, 2014

I'm obsessed with.....

1.       My bed. Seriously ya’ll. It’s heaven in a mattress. I’m not the only one who thinks so. I literally have had friends call me at work to ask me if they can go take a nap at my house. It’s nothing short of amazeballs. And it wasn’t expensive. Some offbrand (Southerland or Southland maybe?) I happened to stumble upon when I was at Ashley Furniture.

    2.      Frappucino. #needsnoexplanation

      3. Beyonce
      4. St. Louis Cardinals..... I'm going to go ahead and say that when they won the World Series in2012 it was easily one of the best days of my life. There is nothing like the energy at a red bird game. And Yadi. He's my fav.

 5. Puppy breath.